Sunday, February 23, 2014

What am I doing here?

You get it, right?  Sometimes a woman just needs a change.  I feel like I'm just in need of a new space to speak my words... a new room.  Plus, change has not been kind to my old blog.

For starters, we have a daughter now.  Glory be.  I really never thought that would happen.  Due to my lack of foresight, I created a blog title that held me accountable to only having sons.  Yeah... I'm so not in control over that.  The old title... well, it could be adapted, but my little girl seemed like kind of an add-on.  And if you know my daughter, she is definitely NOT an add-on.  

Second, writing on my blog became something so different from what I thought it would be.  Initially, I just planned to share what I was doing in the lives of my children; but it's become so much more.  It's about how God is changing me and sometimes changing them in the process.  Plus, I'm beginning to realize how ambitious it is to even speak the phrase that we are trying to raise grace-givers, let alone title a blog about growing gracious children.  SPOILER ALERT: Our children are selfish and rude just like yours.  They throw fits and pretend they can't hear us.  By no means are we satisfied to let them think that's alright, but it's definitely the reality of the training process.

So here we are.  My writes are here for all to read, especially since my other rights are rapidly vanishing.  Let's just go there for a minute.  Do you remember the books that you read on motherhood that talked about your "welcome addition" learning that your schedule was the priority?  Sigh... oh goodness.  Don't get my wrong.  I want my children to know that my husband and I have a bigger vision for their lives and for our life as a family; therefore, we (and not they) will be leading.  I have no problem helping my children find a routine and goals that work for our family, but there is no way I'm going to pretend that I have control over my life or their choices.  Free will raises its ugly head way too often around here.  My daily activities are almost completely determined by the needs of those around me not my own desires, and I'm at my happiest when I lay down my own rights and choose to serve others.  Amen?

I hope you enjoy the new space.  I feel like it's given me a new freedom to write about what I'm learning, what we're reading, and why we're doing it.  I'm trying to figure out how to transfer some of the content of my old blog, but in the meantime I hope you settle and get comfortable.  Blessings to you, friends!